We’ve had a rough week this week. It has not been a week that anyone would consider miraculous by any stretch of the imagination. What I can say though, is that each trauma, each disappointment, has worked out the best it possibly could given the circumstances. The promise never was that there would be no disappointments or heartaches. The promise instead is that we would be guided and directed through them if we trust in our Savior.
My oldest son has been in a cycle of poor choices, disgusting behavior, serious depression and mental health issues, and a general inability to function. Sunday he basically ran away from home again. There is nothing pleasant about any of that. However, I can see the Lord’s hand in each step of the way, both for us and for him. I will give some specific examples of what I mean.
- As we were developing a plan to help him start functioning better, we realized he would need to leave the home. The last step we were hung up on was on how and when to actually kick him out. An hour after the decision had been made that we needed to act that day, he announced his intention to leave and become homeless. Same result, but there is no question that we were not the bad guys.
- Homeless shelter the next town over (his choice), was full and he spent a night on the street. Ended up being the best thing he could have experienced. It was a tiny wake up call, but we live in an exceptionally safe area. There are no really bad areas of town, even around the homeless shelter. (In reality, the most serious danger he was in was probably from the 100+ weather that we have.) Where else can you be turned away from the homeless shelter carrying an expensive laptop and new cell phone and come away from the experience without any theft or incident? The plans I had come up with would never have been that drastic, but he really needed at least that much.
- Although he will not be returning home, he has made arrangements to stay for a while a few blocks down the street. He is not in a place I would have lined up for him, and quite frankly not a place he would have thought of. It was interesting how that particular decision was made, but the more I think about it, I can not think of a better place for his overall development.
- Our home has been so much happier the last few days. We are all disappointed and a little traumatized by the way things played out, but everyone here is more at peace.
Anyway, thanks for everyone’s prayers. I know they have worked mini-miracles in his life already.