Forgiveness is a miracle. The older I get, the more I realize that I have not even understood this. I’m not sure there are even words to express how miraculous forgiveness is on many, many levels. So I guess this is a short post!
Miracles for today are a little too personal to post, but here is a thought.
It is amazing what stupid, stupid things our pride will make us do. We were given intelligence, and think that it helps us make good choices, but our intelligence does not seem to be any match for our pride. Pride seems to win almost every time. My intelligence, however, does tell me that the only match for my pride would have to be it’s opposite. I think that would be humility. So, if my logic still works, humility contributes to intelligent decisions more than our intellect. Somehow I think that works. Don’t know if anyone follows that, but think on it for a while and it should make some sense.
Just last Wednesday I took my son to the St. George temple to do some baptisms for the dead. (See here) It took us over 2 hours to do 5 names each. We had more family names, but due to the volume of people also waiting, we were asked to keep it to 5 each. Others also had stacks of family names they were asked to limit. The poor workers were doing everything they could to keep up with the rush of people. I had thought that going in the middle of the day, middle of the week that it would not be that bad. The workers told us they had been this busy for weeks and expected the rush (about 50 people the entire time) to continue through the spring. The last time we went we went at 7am on a holiday weekend, but it was crowded then as well. Even our youth groups are only invited to come once or twice a year. No one wants to complain that it is too crowded at the temple, but it really is!
As we sat and waited, and waited, we were able to really enjoy the spirit and atmosphere inside the temple. Jeremy leaned over and expressed a desire that instead of just sitting, he wished he had the option of wandering the rooms and halls of the temple to more fully enjoy his experience. We realized that he has never been to a temple open house. We spoke about what an experience that would be for him.
Needless to say, we were super excited when it was announced in conference over the weekend that southern Utah is getting an additional temple!!! It is planned for Cedar City, the other primary population center that we share the St. George temple with. Now Jeremy will get his wish of walking through the temple and enjoying the spirit and the building and attending an open house!
- I Love To See The Temple…My Journey (brotherjonspage.wordpress.com)
- LDS temples to be built in Cedar City, Rio (fox13now.com)
- Mormons church to 2 new temples in Utah, Brazil (utsandiego.com)
- Mormon Leaders Warn Members to Heed Rules on Proxy Baptisms (eogn.com)
I’m going through some audio tapes from 1984, when we spent Easter in the Holy Land. I was going to upload a clip of the audio, but it won’t let me. Here is a rough transcription. It is a recording from Daniel Rona, recorded with permission for personal use.
“Gethsemane (on Mt. Of Olives)= vineyard, or orchard where wine is pressed. Geth = garden Sheme = oil, or stuff you squeeze out. How do you recognize a wine press person – feet and clothing stained red.
Read from scriptures. (matthew – 8 verses) Most significant thing that has ever happened. The public part, happened at the rock quarry. The crucifixion was a public atonement – for everyone. Gethsemane not for everyone, only for those who take advantage of it through repentance.
Here the Savior suffered for our sins (and we say it much to easily.) We are basically good people trying to do the best we can, and we can’t even stand in for our own children, and we can’t take away their hurts, or our own. He even atoned for those trying to be wicked. We don’t have comprehension what he went through that night. Story – Elder Faust. He stood under these trees and said, “I’ve been here before.” He felt so unworthy when he was called to the quorm of the 12, that he was in actual pain, and felt he couldn’t do it. He hurt like he never hurt before. Pres. Kimball replied that they understood, because they had all gone through it. He was trying to explain that this was like the cup being pressed to his lips. He did not have to drink it. He felt he had been to Gethsemane before. It takes a long time for us to come close to comprehending what the Savior went through, just because of who we are. I’m grateful for it, I want it. He said “Repent, lest I smite you by the rod of my mouth, .and your sufferings be sore, how hard to bear, etc.” Find scripture
He hurt so much that night that he bled from every pore of his body. What did he look like? D&C 46? Who is this, who cometh down. 133: “He shall say, I am he . . . red in his apparel. The sun shall hide his face in shame. Etc
With this horrendous experience, he came down and found the disciples asleep. As he arrived he told them to sleep, then told them to wake and said He is at hand who will betray me, and the multitude, of Jewish policemen, came. Judas kissed him. Scripture. Can you imagine the man whose ear was put back on, explaining how he arrested Christ? Scripture reprieving Peter. Scripture reprieving them for abducting him at night. It is illegal, according to Jewish law to arrest someone at night, unless you catch him in the very act. And they came with swords and staves to take him. It was a full moon, significant night, the night before most people would celebrate the deliverance of the People of Israel out of Israel, and look forward to a deliverer, to live again, that he paid for our mistakes. It was so much that he bled from every pore. That night he paid for our mistakes so that we wouldn’t have to. We have to pay for our mistakes in another way. We have to only by stopping them, replacing them with blessings for others”
- Gethsemane: The Olive Press (revivalandreformation.wordpress.com)
- To Gethsemane (sago.com)
- My Own Personal Gethsemane (cherrysocks.wordpress.com)
- Are you sleeping? (atourblessedhome.wordpress.com)
One of my children is currently struggling with this concept. She is exceptionally gifted in many areas, and highly intelligent, to the point that she has trouble in a normal classroom because she does not fit in anywhere. She is almost embarrassed that her lowest grade is a 98%, and does not know, or does not want to know, what her potential really is. I think there is a little of that type of fear in all of us. Here is one of my favorite quotes, although I have conflicting information on the actual source, it looks like probably Marianne Williamson.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
We are doctor shopping again, so I’ve been noticing more recently the people who work with our bodies. If there were a gift that I often wish I had, it would probably be the gift of healing. I think I can do rather well with the making a person comfortable part, but not with the healing itself.
I’ve met just a few people in my life who I feel really have the gift of healing. One was actually a physician (retired, or I wouldn’t be looking!), and others were not. I’ve been to many doctors who I think do a great job with the knowledge they have, and they have a great ability to use the tools at their disposal, but they are not overly intuitive about how bring an entire body to health. From what I’ve seen, an actual healing miracle often is accompanied by a spiritual healing of the person as well.
In our family, we have had much sickness, and much healing. Healing usually has come after much trial and error, and after much suffering and learning from that suffering. Someday I hope to better understand how faith and suffering both play a role in the healing process. In the mean time, does anyone have any great examples of healings?
2. My teenage son was also a great example of appropriate technology last week. He has some favorite multi-player games where he is allowed to cautiously interact with people he meets. Despite the obvious need for extreme caution, I believe he needs to learn how to appropriately interact with others online. While playing he made two new friends. He told us all about them, first because he was excited, and second because one of them used a casual swear word and he felt the need to report that to me and discuss how that may affect his interaction. He already knew what to do, but I appreciated the communication.
Anyhow, one of the new friends was a little confused about some of what was going on. He told this new group of friends that he had aspergers and my son and the other boy jumped right in and gave him a lot of support and positive reinforcement. My son came away with a new appreciation of the power of positive friends. It was interesting because just the week before we had interacted with a group of special needs children. My son schooled me because he instinctively realized “Mom, they just want to have friends like everyone else. Maybe they may even need friends more than everyone else, because not everyone may be as friendly towards them. But they are just a little different, that’s all. They just want friends Mom.” How cool that the internet may be another place where they can find some good friends. There are good people out there too.